Antique Singer Treadle Sewing Machine

Here are some images of my beloved sewing machine. Although it does work, I'd like to have the cabinet/desk restored and the actual machine cleaned properly.

I'M LISTENING

I can't really describe it accurately but, I have this feeling that fills my chest cavity.  It's the urge to flee, to run as fast as I can right now, don't look back, and don't grab anything, just run. This feeling, it's been here for days, just lingering like the smell of fresh rain, well before the first droplet drops. Last time I felt anything remotely similar was many moons ago when night after night I kept having dreams of my drowning in dark viscous water. During this time in my life, I was engaged to a man who just wasn't right for me and soon after the dreams started I began planning my exit. I wonder what my spirit is trying to tell me now.

NO LIFEGUARD ON DUTY

The Accidental Life of the World's First Supermodel... I guess, if she say so... if there is even a grain of truth to her lies... she might wanna stick to modeling because writing is obviously not her talent. Although I think Mama was pretty in her youth, she just seems to be embellishing a bit too much for my tolerance. Possibly my expectations were too high, luckily I only paid $1 for this book so for what it's worth.... $1 + 1hour = eh, whatever

WORKING GIRL UPDATE

In late November I posted a blog listing a few of the goals I wanted to achieve prior to January 1, 2012. I apologize for posting this update so late but, here is it anyway:

1. Open an IRA
2. Save $2,000 gmm 
3. Purchase a gold ankh (changed my mind, purchased multiple pendants instead)
4. Purchase a netbook
5. Purchase a camera
6. Laser Hair Removal

- I've accomplished almost all my goals with the exception of laser hair removal. I'm still researching dermatologist. The one dermatologist I had in mind has yet to answer the phone or return my calls despite all the great reviews I read online and her stellar website, I'm gonna have to find a new dermatologist. Ultimately if my experience thus far is a reflection of their professionalism, I betta take my hairy self elsewhere.

WHOLE FOODS 365 CONDITIONER

Oh yea, I big chopped on January 1, 2012. We'll talk more about this later.

Back to the topic at hand...

I'm holding a bottle of Whole Foods 365 Conditioner (Fragrance Free)

I decided against using it because it smells like chemicals and I'm not too pleased with the ingredient list. 

I'm trying to minimizing my use of chemical hair products. For the last few months I've been cleansing with castile soap and conditioning with oils. That is it and That is all. Thus far I am happy with my choice.

DISINTERESTED

PLENTY FEATHERS - LITTLE WINGS - HOW WILL I EVER LEAVE THIS PLACE?

ALIGNMENT

Celestial Coordinates

Equinox - Sun is directly over the equator. 

Solstice - Sun is farthest North or South.

Year: 2012

Spring Equinox 

March 20th

Summer Solstice

June 20th

Autumnal Equinox

September 22nd

Winter Solstice 

December 21st

AT THIS POINT

Strangely I am rather numb to it all, I guess it's true... 

Eventually immunity builds to anything that doesn't kill. 

Spent so much time baiting, switching, and making me weep 

that one day it just stopped hurting so much

then the next time it hurt a little less

and now I feel nothing at all.

No anger

No love

Just grief for the time and energy wasted.

Now realizing...

... and it will never happen again.

IT'S ALL A PART OF THE MASTER PLAN

My Glory: I am keeping my hair mostly protected & moisturized. It's growing like a weed! I'm so thankful for my mother's genes. I'll be cutting off my remaining texlaxed hair very soon.

Stacked: I'm starting to see a subtle difference in my shape. Once it's more noticeable, I'll post pictures. I measure my waist bi-weekly and I weigh myself weekly.  Slow & Steady :)

Breath of Me: I am consistently rotating my vitamins and drinking lots of water. However, I do need to start getting more sleep.  ( it's hard to quiet a busy mind)

a force to reckon with

WORKING GIRL

So I just a started new job recently. This is actually my first job since I got married many moons ago.  The pay is terrible, and the hours are even worst but, I am grateful to have my job. Furthermore my decision to return to work was met with resistance but, the dust seems to be settling a bit...

Now that I am a "Working Girl" I've decided to set some mini financial plans for myself. These are all things that I want to have accomplished by January 1, 2012. Yes, yes I know I tend to set lofty goals but,  what can be done about it, I'm genetically predisposed to being dreamy. By the way these are not in any particular order, just things I'm gonna do.

1. Open an IRA
2. Save $2,000 (gmm)
3. Purchase a gold ankh
4. Purchase a netbook
5. Purchase a camera
6. Laser Hair Removal (yes ma'am I'm getting rid of it all)

PURSUIT OF EDUCATION

When folks tell me "but you're so smart, it's easy for you." I just have to laugh. I try to explain but, nobody ever listens. No I'm not some brainiac, quite the opposite actually. In elementary, junior high, high school, community college and university I've always earned 2.somethings gpa I can count on one hand how many times I've received a 3.0 gpa in my entire life. I never actually intended to go to college, heck I was surprised each time I managed to pass on to the next grade! But, what I do have is a consistent persistent work-ethic. This is the single most significant factor in my progression. Never ever will I ever quit. 

THE NATURAL TREND

Originally when I first went natural it was because I wanted to stand out, I wanted my hair to serve as an additional compliment to my uniqueness but, since natural hair has become the rave, I'm kinda getting over it. Although, I am happy that so many Divas are less dependent on chemicals, stylist, and weaves. I must admit, I miss being the only one is a room with thick-um twist or a big kinky bun. Ah well!

PATIENCE, PREPARATION, PLANNING

Every single day I dedicate a pinch of my resources to achieving my goal. I'm thickening my skin with each passing day. Yep, folks are gonna talk about what I lost/ gave up/ messed up & whatever else they can conjure up in their convoluted minds. Yep, it's gonna hurt my feelings a little. But, I'll carry a grandmother's words of wisdom in my heart.... "Cream always rises to the top."

remember to shield ya eyes from the envious ones

PREGNANCY PREP.

I believe that women can still be beautiful, sexy, and stylish while pregnant. However, I do think that pre trying to conceive preparation is necessary in most cases. I've noticed that women who maintain themselves best prior to conception tend to look better than those who do not, during and after pregnancy.

The Essentials: 

Positive Attitude, Healthy Diet, Adequate Exercise, Basic Beauty Maintenance, Proper Vitamin and Water Intake.

SKIN CARE

I've struggled with dermatological issues for as long as I can remember. Seriously, I cannot actually remember a point in my life where my skin wasn't having some type of problem. Over the years I've tried some of everything, most only made it worst. The one exception is a combination of Retin-A-Micro & Benzoyl Peroxide Cleanser. I'm currently trying to find a more holistic healthy approach to healing my skin. I truly understand that the skin is a reflection of internal health so I'm working on it from the inside (i.e what i put in my body)  I'm eating nuts on a daily basis and recently I added coconuts to the menu. Well HONEY LET ME TELL YA, I think I'm seeing an improvement in the texture of my skin.  

(keeping my fingers crossed)

I's tink deh Island gyals are on ta sumtin' 

HOMEMADE CONDITIONER

Milk, Oil, Aloe, Eggs 

A CHANGE IS BOUND TO COME

Lately, I've been feeling very overwhelmed. Like there is so much to do and so little time to do it. I feel like my life has been in idle for much too long. Somewhere along the way I stopped making goals and just started living, I lost sight of "my person". I've lost sight of so many things it's a crying shame, literally.

i must keep moving forward

THREE TIPS

1. Type 4 natural hair requires W_O_R_K some days it'll just act the hell up.

2. Be patient with your hair, whenever you're getting frustrated, just leave it alone

3. Water + Castor Oil + Glycerin + Spray Bottle = Moisture

Well I'm still transitioning and it's still taking forever and a day for my hair to grow

SIGNATURE SCENT

I use to have a signature scent... Michael by Michael Kors was the the name but, everything changed one sad day at Restaurant. I was dining with an acquaintance when our trendy waitress strutted her lovely self over to our table...All giddy and such she looks to me and says "Ohhhhh we're wearing the same perfume!!!" Instantly I became annoyed, that's the last time I wore Michael... 7 years ago. Well I've been on the look out for something new ever since.

Here's a list of things I've tried...

Juicy Couture - great for Summer

Lemon No.1999 - after a few hours smells like household cleaner

Amber romance - great for Fall but, they've discontinued the perfume

Enchanted Apple - after about 30 minutes it begins to smell cheap

Love Spell - too strong... too loud

Finally, I've found my short-term-luv although I doubt she'll be around come Summer, she's definitely a keep-pah for upcoming Fall-Winter months.... 

Seductive Amber by Victoria Secret Exotics

VISIONARY

 

STEVE JOBS  (1955-2011)

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